For a shop that sold cigarettes. The one
I encountered gave a tinkering feeling inside of me
And the beautiful creasy outfit appeared
It’s 4 in the morning and I am brushing my teeth. Not because morning has arrived but my insomnia has ended.
A normal sleepless night had gone by. A Eddie Vedder song, Society played through the silent musings the night offered. My light was on though. A mere cheap bulb cannot contain the darkness that lies outside my comfortable room. The song ended; the cravings spurred. When the habit kicks, you stop enjoying things without the chemical stick. It becomes your crutch. The only hazard I have faced. They say there is more to follow. I have to go out now. The only trouble is the big hybrid dogs that guard the society of the residency. The happy people are asleep. My cyno-phobic heart struggles. I dared outside concurrently strolling aside a brave guy who wore an ID to work. He is allowed to walk this time because he is an unskilled labour and a cab awaits for him. The tea stall is nearby the road. I bought the sweet hot tea and the cheap stick. My fag reached the highway and vanished. The life changing moment I had wanted has not arrived as of yet. All I needed was to reach my lowest potential and strive towards resurgence. I don’t know how lower I need to go. I guess I have to make more holes in my belt. I am buying the cheapest stick these days.
Capitalism allows you to have the cheapest and the best. There is no lowest. It allowed me to enjoy the poison and the sweet tea. The only commodity it fails to enjoy is Love, an optimism to end this tiredness. The greatest ambition. Once it takeovers love, it will be launched in series, Love 7 Love 8s and differently same versions would follow. At this moment, we are safe. We can pursue. We can wait.
My smoke is about to end and the dirty part of tea gulped. I have to go back to my room. There is sadness when things end even if it is happy loneliness or a cup of tea. I think this useless morning contemplation won’t change anything. I will still be the same hypocrite with a low moral code for other people. I will still fail to pursue my greatest ambition. I will still walk with my head low.
But I don’t fear the night dogs like before.
Well, one of my Blog was about
6 Men Who Got Friend Zoned (Link – https://nibirdeka.wordpress.com/2014/06/15/6-men-who-got-friend-zoned-fictional). Now why should ‘Girls have all the fun’? The revenge is sweet and karma pays you back.
1. Black Widow and Captain America
The ‘Marvel-istic’ superhero seems to be the pioneer of Friend Zoning one of the hottest being in the world, Black Widow. The redemption of Manhood towards female monopoly of Friend Zoning innocent males. Thank You Captain America, more than an accidental Superhero.
2. Hermione and Harry
The Boy who lived Friend Zoned Hermione, by the most famous way of doing it. The BFF way. It all started when he preferred the Chinese girl over her. Well, to Harry the grass is always greener on the other side or maybe her pre-puberty looks still haunts him.
3. Velma and Shaggy
Shaggy, who looked like a Weed addict dated Velma for a short spam leading to many complications between Scooby Doo. In the end it turned all sour and he decided to remain ‘Just Friends’ (if that word existed), all for his buddy Scooby. Shaggy made the right call it seems, as for Velma, “Jinkies”.
4. Bellatrix and Voldemort
There is no way Voldemort, a power obsessed narcissistic soul would ever waste time seducing a woman. However, Bellatrix did saw something in whatever the Tom Riddle left in him. Had there been more, we would have to witnessed something really gross. Good choice, Tom.
5. Elizabeth and Bhuvan
Poor Elizabeth had to be a Greg Chappel for Bhuvan, who later preferred the Desi over Firangi. How love can make someone a Vibhisan(for the British Raj) and can end you up in getting Friend Zoned. Communication gap may have played a big role as Elizabeth was really ‘Gauri’(beautiful). Elizabeth, we feel you.
6. Anjali and Rahul
Well this story provides some necessary comfort to all those who have been friend zoned. You can still end up getting married. Although, you have to do a makeover and be more feminine.
Note:- A bit of treading and upper lip helped in this case.